Just Me

seems like I always end up screwing things up.. lost one of my best friends.. someone I love.. and she was gone for 9 years... and then she came back. and after only 11 months I screwed up again and now it looks like she's leaving me again... why can't I just get it right sometimes... been rough lately.. Mom died in March.. Wife and I are in counseling to try to hold our marriage together... my arthritis and psoriasis keep spreading and getting worse... work has become stressful... i'm in debt to the point of drowning.. and my car is falling apart... starting to think maybe fighting on after my daughter died was a waste of time...