Reality by Phone

So after almost 2 years of little to no contact from my friend Heaven I got an invite to her son's B-day party in the mail. I figured maybe she was trying to bridge the long gap between us. But the party is on a weekend when I won't be in state. So on the invite it says to call with regrets. So I called.
3 min. Thats how long the call lasted. Thats how long it took me to realize that whatever used to be between us is gone. I told her I missed her, no reply. I told her I couldn't make it, she said thats fine. I told her I loved my friend, no reply. I told her maybe we could get together some other time, no reply. Then her son started crapping without a diaper on and she had to go. There was just nothing there, it was like I didn't even know her. Maybe after 2 years I don't. I hate losing people. I hate losing friends. I hate losing someone I loved. But maybe if I get hit on the head with something enough even I get the picture. I will miss her, and will charish the memories of our times together. But I think I won't be e-mailing her anymore. That makes me sad.