Almost Dead

Ok, ever done something stupid without realizing it? Well, I just scared the hell out of myself. I had gone out to the bank to deposit a check from my Cuz who owed me a bit of money. I come home and pull into the garage, shutting the door. As I'm sitting there just about to turn off the car the radio starts to play "Wild Horses" by the Rolling Stones. So I lean back and listen to the song, singing along with it. As it ends they follow up with "Ramble On" by Led Zepplin, and who can really turn that song off. Then they play "Old LA Tonight" by Ozzy, and it's half way through that song that part of my brain kicks in and informs me that I'm almost totally asleep sitting in a closed garage with a car thats been running for almost 10 min. I force my eyes open, sitting up and realize the place stinks of fumes and it's hard to breath. I reach out, turn off the car, hit the garage door opener, and get out of the car. My head is now pounding, my stomach is slightly sick, and I have a strange feeling I just came close to sleeping away to the radio for good.

Ok, maybe the stress/depression/agrivation is getting to me more than I'd like to admit or show. But if I'm going to die it will not be to Ozzie Osburne, no matter how much I like his music. He hasn't really been the same since Randy died anyways.

I think I need to find a job soon. Too much free time is not good for me.