Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Fading Around

I was looking at my wedding album this afternoon, and it occurred to me how many of my close friends I don't see much these days. At one point in my life I used to joke that if I got married I'd have more friends than family at the wedding. By the time I got married there were decidedly less friends than I would have ever thought. Now only 1 1/2 later even those friends I barely see anymore. A few I get to keep in touch with thanks to Facebook, but many have just faded away from my life if not my heart.
Lil Sis moved to Florida... we talk by phone often but I miss seeing her.
Midget I still talk to and occasionally see
Poet I work with so I talk to him the most, although we rarely get together after work.
Bm & The Hottie I haven't seen in ages. The Hottie is on Facebook, but only occasionally. We have alternate schedules so we haven't been able to visit in so long
Kells Bells I've only talked to/seen 3 times since the wedding. She doesn't return my calls and to be honest I've started to slack off on calling now
Bro and I still talk once in a blue moon. Don't get me wrong, we're as close as ever, we just don't find much time to get to chat. He and all the ones in bOregon fall into this category.
BS I haven't heard from even on Facebook in ages.
Heaven occasionally says hi on facebook, but it's hit or miss with her.
Boston tries to get together with me whenever she visits CT, but that's only on some holidays.
J$ I can't seem to ever get a hold of.
Mr. Bri I've seen recently, but it still is long breaks between visits.
Roe-Roe has been through some turbulence and we haven't been able to make a visit work in quite a while.
Quad L hasn't been around very much since her marriage.
Ug I hear from very rarely on Facebook.
Ant is on facebook and we talk fairly often, but I haven't heard anything from her Mom Isis since almost a year before my wedding.
And I'm actually friends with the Demon's oldest sister on Facebook, MalloChelle. We only talk ever 2 months or so, but it's funny how I can be so close still with the family after all that's happened, but it's good to.
So I wonder why it is that life does it's best to rip friends apart. I tried so hard for so long to hold onto the folks I love, but I guess in the end with most of them I just wasn't strong enough.
Makes me sad.....