Rainy days and fading smiles

So I get back from vacation, it rains for 3 days staright and now Babushka is a mess because her cat is sick and we don't know how bad it may be. Life just hates that I took time off and is trying to make me pay.
One of the sad things about the cottage this year was that it's the first time I've been in my entire life without my Nanie being there. It was her cottage and even when she was not doing too good she somehow managed to get up there while I was there every year. Sitting in her old room realizing she would never sleep there again was very hard to take. Looking at the old pictures on the walls, back when everyone was happy, was hard as well. So many are gone who are up there.
It made me think about all those who are gone now. Not just dead but just gone from my life. I've always believed that somehow someway all those I loved would someday come back again if just given time. Yes people come and go, but I always hope that they know that I will always care for them. I've always done my best to keep the door open for them all, to try and make sure that goodbye is never done with hard feelings, that it is always see you later instead. To let them know that no matter how much time passes I'll always have a hug waiting for them when we see each other again.
Sitting there in her room, looking at the old pictures I realized that sometimes, no matter what the singers or writers or romantics may say, sometimes goodbye does last forever.
I'm not sure I'm happy living in a world where that sentence is true.

Hi there

Yep you guessed it, I'm back. Actually got back last night but I took a day of rest to recupe from the 11 hour drive (Would have been 10 hours if not for traffic in Hartford. 45 min of being stopped before getting of I91 and using back roads. While New Haven may be the dirty buttcrack of CT, Hartford is the hairy armpit of the state.)
Babushka and I had a great time in Canada. We spent most of our time Swimming. It's so nice in a large fresh water lake. I could go out up to my neck and still see my feet. I'll eventually have pictures (once I have the money to develope them.). I only got to see a few of my relatives though. The cottage doesn't have a pone this year (we didn't bother getting it turned on after my Nanie Died) so I had no way to call anyone and let them know I was there. What a shame.
Still, we got to go to the local flea market, eat the worlds best fish and chips (and that's coming from a man who doesn't like fish), eat Swiss Chalet (Which I recomend to anyone who goes to the Northern country, they have an awsome sauce for thier chicken!), and swim almost evey day. Add in Humpty Dumpty Ketchup chips and I wish I could have stayed forever.
Yet that is not to be. So here I am once again, back to the day to day of life. Looking for a job and watching everything fall apart around me. Yet I have the memories and the smiles to carry me through. At least till next year when I'll do it again.
I hope everyone is doing great, I'll try and do the rounds tom night.
Peace.

Vacation

I'll be back after the 27th. I hope everyone has a great week . Keep Smiling. Peace.

Request

Ok, so as I gear up for my trip to Canada I'm burning CD's like mad. The problem is, I think I've gotten just about all the stuff I can think of. From doing full CD's of individual proformers to mix CD's I just can't seem to be able to come up with much more. I think It's just that my brain is burned out trying to get ready.
So what I figure I could do is turn to you, my fellow bloggers, to see what you come up with. I'm asking for 4-5 songs from each of you. Now I'm not looking for stuff that is popular on the radio. I've gotten about all the radio friendly songs I need. What I'd like is some personal favorties that arn't overly well known. Some exaples would be 'Beakdown' by Jack Johnson, which I first found out about by Mom That's Nuts or 'Ghost' by Indigo Girls that EFFXB put on a tape for me or 'Sleeping In' by the Postal Service that I first heard in the company of BM. Songs that are great, but you won't have heard of unless you really like the artist. So what do you say? Can you come up with 4-5 relativly unknown songs for me to check out for the drive? Give it a shot.

The wrong number of the beast

Although it is apparently old news I'm just finding out about this. See it seems that bible scholors have changed the translation on some of the bible, and one of the changes is that the number of the beast, aka satans number, isn't 666. Nope, they say it's really 616.
Oops, sorry Satan. Our bad.
Of course, just to show how really pathetic they are, several satanic churches have decided to stay with 666 since it is the number more people are afraid of.

Religion. What a strange concept.

Man, guss this mean that whole post I did on the numbers of the Beast is all wrong. Oh, well. Also bet this screws up several peoples tatoos. Heh.

Light the Night

Full moon out tonight. It makes the nighttime shine.
Once called Luna, which is where we get the words Lunatic and lunacy because it was believed that it drove men mad. People feared it, associating it with darkness, which I never understood. It dispels the darkness, allows us to see the world in it's nighttime glory.
I just got back in from a walk. It's just so beautiful seeing everything in it's soft white light. Reflections from a sun a world away. A piece of this world sent out, forced out, to look down upon us in our darkest hours.
The focus of superstition and stoires and mythology since the dawn of mankind.
Man in the Moon. Never been able to see him myself.
Once believed to be made out of cheese. Heh. Gotta love what people will believe.
You can actually go to the Lunar residency site and purchase some property on the moon. I'm not kidding, type in 'Own the Moon' at Google and check it out. Just like you can own a part of the ocean. Scary what people will buy isn't it?
I just love the moon.

Friends are There...

So I figured I'd do a few posts about the peole in my life, or even thoe who are now out of my life. If your confused about some of the nicknames I use in my blog, here are some of the folks behind the names.

Midget

Ug

Demon

BS

J$

Lil Sis

Poet N Dreamer

Question of the day

Ok, I was debaing between posting this question and doing a piece on the mysteries of the natural world. Hmmmm.... That would take a bit so I'll go with the question for now and leave the world alone till another day.
So whats the question you ask?

What do you consider to be the most embarressing thing you've done for the sake of a relationship?

An example you ask? Ok, mine would have to be actually making a cd of myself singing songs for the Demon. Yep that's right, the ultimate tone deaf person in the world sang several songs onto a cd disc and gave it to her for Easter one year in her basket that I made. In my defense it was in response to a tape she'd made me some time before of her singing.
So what songs did the old Wookie sing? Alright... don't laugh. I sang "Beautiful in my Eyes" by Joshua Kadison (Which was a song that had personal meaning behind it for us, but I'm not going into it right now), "This Old Heart of Mine" By Rod Stuart (You just can't get any goofier a singer than Rod.). "I'll Be" By Reba McEntire, "Let me be Your Teddy Bear" By Elvis (And yes I did the Elvis voice, whcih I am actually good at), and "You are so Beautiful" by Joe Cocker (And I do a pretty good voice for him too.).
Yeah, sad ain't it? Ok, so what about you? And don't tell me you never did anything embarressing, love makes fools of us all.
So lets hear it, how big a fool have you been for your heart?

Coma coma down dooby doo down down

This freakin year sucks.
My Bro's Dad, Big Bob, is in the hospital and sinking fast. Bro's coming home from bOregon because they don't think Big Bob will make it to the end of the month. I've known the family since I was 4. It's hard to picture anything taking out Big Bob, he was always such a large loud boisterous man.
This will make 3 funerals this year. Add in my Lil Sis's step Dad is doing very bad also and it might be 4.
I think I'm just going to go find a cave somewhere and hide till Jan 1st.