Just another low point

Sleeping too much.
Being anti-social.
Feeling fat and slow and stupid.
Restless.
Feeling sad.


Depression sucks.

'Tis the Season

To all of those who celebrate it... Merry Christmas.
To those who don't..... Enjoy the Season.
and to all
a good night.

Thursday Thoughts

Ok, first things, I HATE THE CAP LOCK BUTTON!

Now that thats out of my system lets see...

My friend Ug up in the frozen wastes of Eh-yup land has managed to break his back. Dude, it's time to face facts: We are getting old man, and you need to stop with the whole tantric sex thing. Seriously though, that sucks. Hope your ok and that this doesn't stop you from having a great holiday with the kids.

Midget, of course I had a blast at your wedding. The problems I have with weddings don't change the enjoyment of seeing a friend get married. Now stop worrying about it and go re-enact your honeymoon with Amazonia. After all, Tis the season right?

We think one of my Cuz's may have a kidney stone. Talk about the X-mas gift you just don't want, thats worse than getting socks. While I've never been a believer in the whole 'as painful as pregnancy' thing, I have heard the screams as someone passes one and know that it's not exactly the way you want to look forward to the new year.

Had to go buy a new monitor for my comp. Guess that'll teach me to start using a surge protector. All my own fault, but not exactly what I wanted to be spending money on this time of year.

Went and saw BM and the Hottie at thier first Roller Derby on the 10th. Had a lot of fun, although we had to leave early cause Babushka had to go babysit. The Hotties team got screwed though when the scoreboard got messed up and they didn't add points for one round. A small matter, but the girls work hard at it and deserved to have a win. Of course the first fall of the night went to BM who is a ref and was showing off when they introduced him. It was pretty funny. Also, the girls look great in thier outfits. The Hottie managed to get 2 penalties, which is good considering that your supposed to knock people down. What a little scrapper. Which just goes to show that not only does she have a great body but she's not afraid to throw it around. (just kidding BM!).

One of my neices actually wants a Chia Pet for X-mas. Never thought I'd get to buy one of them. Heh.

Anyways, hope everyone's doing good and I'll post again before the holiday. Have a great endweek and as always:
Peace.

Nuptuals

So I went to the Poet's wedding on Saturday. It was a good one as far as wedding go. Good music (Beatles, Miles Davis, Coultrane, and many more), good food, open bar (always a way to improve any social gathering).
But it does leave me with some questions about weddings.
Like, why is it that on what is supposed to be the happiest day of your life you are required to wear the most uncomfortable clothes? Whats wrong with jeans and a t-shirt? Or even slacks and a sweater if need be? Why a tie? High heels? It hurts to smile when your too dressed up.
Also, lets drop most of the ceremony already. I understand that once upon a time weddings were very religious based, but now it's more of a love/tax thing. You love the person, and will get your taxes lowered. Yeah, it's become all government based now. You need a wedding certificate, change you last name, change your tax standing, get blood test, ect. Lets drop the readings of Peter's letter to the Corinthians and all that. It's unnecessary. Spending an hour hearing about 'Oh the great Lord does sayeth thoust shallest loveth thy neighbors and be trueth..." Enough already. Do the vows, kiss, and then get ready to head out on the honeymoon. I'm not saying remove your god of choice from the ceremony, I'm just saying keep it simple and keep it short.
Also, if your a best man then at least stay sober long enough to give your speech. While Poet's brother did do a great job, I've seen too many best men who get up there with thier fourth glass of whatever and slur out some crap that either nobody understands or is embaressing. You wree givent his task because the groom trust you, be a man and live up to that trust.
That is another thing actually. Stay somewhat sober if your at a wedding. Even if just a guest no one wants to have to listen to you being loud and obnoxious while you think your being funny. This isn't a bar, it's an important event for someone who considers you either friend or family, and while you should have a good time it shouldn't make that person question why they invited you in the first place.
I still think that if I ever do get hitched it'll be a summer wedding at the beach in swimsuits so everone can go for a dip if they get hot. Dinner will be a BBQ, and afterwards everyone can do what they want because I'll be off to the honeymoon to have crazy monkey sex.
Peace.

Highs with lows

So the physical for Yale went poorly. Aparently my Blood Pressure is so high that the doc was worried about me having a heart attack in her office. She wanted to know if I've been under any stress lately. I tried not ot laugh.
This doesn't mean I don't get the job. But first I have to get my pressure under control. Which means going to a doctor and getting a prescription for pills while having no money and no insurance.
I wonder what the penalty for robbing a pharmacy for blood pressure pills is?

Oongowah

Ok, whats up with them pushing the 'NEW' version of blogger? I don't trust it. I still remember all the trouble I had whenever they did 'Upgrades' to my old version. Not being able to log in, not being able to comment, losing posts. So they want me to start all over again with a new type of blog? Nuts to that.

Favorite quote of the day:
"When someone is saved by death by a strange concentration of circumstances, they say it' a miracle.But of course if someone is killed by a freak chain of events- the oil spilled just there, the safety fence broken just there- then that must also be a miracle. Just because it's not nice doesn't mean it's not miraculous."
-Terry Pratchett

Going to a semi-stag party tonight. Semi? It means that we're going to a bar and then out for Indian food. No strippers or anything like that. Which is fine by me, I've never understood the point of strippers. I HATE window shopping. It's like paying to sit with a plate of good food in front of you but not being able to eat it. And for $20 more they'll sit the food in your lap.

The drug test went well, not that I have ever worried about a drug test. Now I have the physical on Tuesday. (origionally thought it was Monday, good thing I got that straightened out.). If all goes well I should be working before the holidays.

Starting on my Christmas Cards today. While I can't afford gifts I can at leats buy a box or two of cards from one of those 'All cards half price' places. The question is who to send too. I've always been a big sender of cards, usually to anyone that I didn't get a gift for. This would include people I haven't seen in years. While I don't get to see/hear from them at least they know I've been thinking of them. But since I'm not getting gifts this year that would mean buying a whole lot of cards. I figure since most of the people I don't get a card back from, and in fact in many cases don't even hear from in any way, then maybe this year I'll just send cards to those who I do see/hear from. Save me some money.

Just re-read Tim Allens book 'Don't Stand Too Close To A Naked Man'. Funny book, I highly recomend it. Shame his career now consists of bad christmas movies.

Another Rocky movie? Heh. Sylvester needs to just quit. Like the last one wasn't bad enough. I honestly was waiting for a Wierd Al song to start when I saw the commercial. Whats going to be the plot of this one? Rocky not being able to put on his gloves due to arthritis?

Hope your all doing good.
Peace.

observations

Using a real tree for christmas is just evil. There is no reason for it, fake trees work just as well. Cutting down a tree that has been growing for several years just so you can put lights on it for a month is just backwards thinking. Your killing a living tree for the sake of a holiday that was origionally meant to celebrate the fact that there was still life during the hard winter months. (Sorry folks, but Christmas is a pagan holiday and has nothing to do with Jesus, so he isn't the reason for the season no matter how many bumper stickers you buy.) . Buy a fake tree, and if you miss the smell of a real one then soak it in pine-sol or buy some of those pine car fresheners. But leave the real trees alone.

Another thing that urked me today, if you keep your high-beams on while your driving on the highway for more than 3 exits that is not a mistake, it is you being a moron. I so want to affix a reflective mirror like surface to the rear of my car when I get one of those idiots behind me. We have all made the mistake of turning on our high beams at times in the face of an oncoming car, but leaving them on for extnded periods of time is just plain dumb on your part.
Grrr.

Also, Christmas is a holiday, and it's supposed to be a time of love and family and friends, so if your out buying Christmas gifts and your being an a** to people then you don't undertsand the point of a holiday and you need to put the gifts down and go sit in a dark room until you either remember why your buying the gifts or you die. Either outcome is fine.

Last up on my small rant is people on blogger who go around commenting on other peoples blogs with inane stuff such as religious warnings or cryptic messages or just out and out spam. Get a life people. I'm sick of the religious right deciding that my blog is evil due to the name of it without either knowing where the name comes from or reading any of the posts at all. As for spam, nobody cares about your gambling site, or porn site, or whatever spam your pushing today. Do you really think flooding other peoples blog with the crap is going to bring them running to you? Insanity.

All in all things are going good right now. I'm trying to get over the last of my cold before I go for my physical (how is your health sir? cough cough hack cough... Fine thank you.). I'm hoping I can get in there and start working so that I get my first paycheck before X-mas so I can buy at least a couple gifts. (Especially for my Babushka, who has helped me so much during this last crap year. I'll feel like such a scumbag if I can't afford to get her anything.)
Hope everyone's doing good. I'll try and check blogs tom. Peace.

News

I go for my physical at Yale on Monday. They have a drug test, but since I've never done drugs I'm not worried about that.
So in the space of a week the year from hell has turned around somewhat. My Mom seems to be cancer free, my Pop got a job, I may have a job, the house has a bid on it. This doesn't change that it's been a crappy year, but at least it means I'll be heading into the holiday season a lot better off than I was doing before.
Thanks to all of you for your support, pryers, kind words, ect. I don't think I would have made it this far if not for my friends. You guys and gals rule.

I've been tagged by a Meme

Lone Rangers Tagged me, so here ya go:

Three Meme

1. Three things that scare me:
Losing People,
Crowds,
the Demon

2. Three people that make me laugh:
Babushka,
my Cuz,
George Carlin

3. Three things I don't really like:
Stress,
Eggplant,
Snow

4. Three things I don't understand:
the Government,
Golf,
Sado-Masochism

5. Three things I'm doing right now:
Typing,
Reading,
Being Lazy

6. Three things I want to do before I die:
Visit Scotland,
Attend my Psycho Sisters Funeral,
Win the Lotto

7.Three things I can do:

Juggle,

Read Fast,

Make People Smile

8. Three ways to describe my personality:

Um....

9. Three things I can't do:

Watch men hurting Women

Watch Golf,

Do Yoga

10. Three things I think you should listen to:

Barenaked Ladies,

the Howling Wind on a Dark Night

Rain hitting the Ground

11. Three things you should never listen to:

Organized Religion,

Politicians,

Never take relationship advice from single people

12. Three things I'd like to learn:

Next weeks lotto numbers,

If nothing sticks to teflon then how they get teflon to stay on the pans?

Is there intelligence out there

13. Three favorite foods:

Homemade Hamburgers

Buffalo Chicken strips

Fried Mozzarella

14. Three beverages I drink regularly:

Milk,

Water,

Soda

15. Three shows I watched as a kid:

Thundaar the Barbarian

Spider-Man and his Amazing Friends

Incredible Hulk

16. Three people I'm tagging (to do this):

I'm not tagging anyone. If you like it do it, if not then don't

Holiday top ten

It's time for a Christmas top ten! That's right, while many may consider it too early for holiday music, well I for one want the end of the year here as quickly as possible, so I'm starting christmas early.

1. Driving Home for Christmas - Chris Rae
2. O Come Emmanuel - Jaci Valesquz
3. Merry Christmas Everybody - Slade
4. Snow is Falling - Shakin Stephen
5. All I Want for Christmas is a Real Good Tan - Kenny Chesney
6. All Want For Christmas is You - My Chemical Romance
7. Katy's Christmas Card - John Schneider
8. Santa Bring My Baby Back to Me - Elvis
9. One Wish for Christmas - Whitney Houston
10. Snowmieser/Heatmieser - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy

and my extra holiday cheer:

1. Deck the Halls - SheDaisy
2. The Christmas Song - Nat king Cole

On a Rainy December Day

So it's been a bit of up and downs lately. No news from the doctor on how bad my Mom's cancer might be. No news from Yale on the job. We have an offer on the house finally, which means we might have to move out before Christmas. (and I just finished putting up all the holiday decorations too). Just feel like things are stangnant right now, waiting around for anything to happen.
Ok, while I was writing this the doctor called. He can find no signs of cancer in my Mom. If it is there it's so small that he can't see it. He;'s still going to go over it again with another doctor, but so far it looks good.
Man, thats a wieght and a half lifted at least.
Thank you all for your support during this crap, it means a lot to me.
I'm going to go sit with my Mom for a bit, my post will wait for now.